I was
in bad circumstances. I
had survived the war in the Caucasus without injury and with high hopes
for life in Moscow, but that had not come to pass. I lived in mean lodgings
and worked long hours to pay off my debts.
Next
door to mine lived a pensioner named Kurzov. Heavy and lame, he limped and
breathed heavily when he walked. I could hear him coming down the hall any
time he ventured out of his room.
One
day I came home from working and found Kurzov outside of my door, waiting
for me.
"May
I have a word with you, Pavel Andreeich?" he
said.
I
had hoped to fall as immediately into sleep as possible, but I invited him
in. I motioned for him to sit in my one chair, but he elected to stay
standing. I sat instead.
"I
am afraid I am going to ask you a favor, Pavel Andreeich," he said. "There
are times, not often but sometimes, when I collapse in the street. My dignity...." Here he trailed
off and then began afresh. "Would it be possible for you to accompany me
four blocks tomorrow at six in the morning. The errand should not take
long."
Tomorrow
I did not have to work. An entire day of thinking of how to improve my
situation loomed before me.
"Of
course," I said.
The
next morning I arose , washed and dressed, and had bread and tea. At six
exactly Kurzov knocked lightly on my door. We set out together in
silence.
Kurzov
led the way. He looked unsteady at times—once I grasped him by both of his
elbows—but he never fell. When we had gone the four blocks he nodded, and
we stopped.
It
was an unremarkable part of Moscow, a district of little-used warehouses.
A carriage would go by from time to time, but we were alone among
pedestrians.
At
once, Kurzov began to weep. He made no sound, but the tears flowed and the
misery on his face was absolute. I turned away to give him some small
degree of privacy. After a few minutes he touched my elbow. He had wiped
his face. We started the walk back to the
lodgings.
"Every
year I come here at exactly this time,"he said.
I
nodded. "I take it something terrible happened at this spot," I
said.
"Oh no," he said. "Seven
blocks from here. But to go there, that would be too much, you
know?"